Ok so i'm at work right now because i woke up a little to late, but oh well. Working on saturdays sucks but it's also probably the most mellow time in the library. My mom's blood pressur picked back up and smoothed out so lats i heard she won't have to be opend back up (thank God)last night i didn't hang out with meag anf jenny (sad)i don't know if we'll ever hang out but oh well. Since i didn't hang out with the i was able to hang out with lauren which was fun. we were going to go lazer tagging with Amell and Kacy but kacy bakced out (you never know who your going to get with her) so lauren amell and i hung out for awhile, we found a really good icecreem place and it was fun. Ok that was my day so yeah.

ok, so the sugery that "went well" as of last time i wrote is now having complications. My mom has enternal bleeding and if it didn't pan out over last night they will be onening her back up and trying to fix it. This is kind of the worry i have reight now. It's weird how stuff like this efects someone. It's like this tention in my sholders, that kind of fallow' everywhere i go and is in the back of my mind nomater what stupid crap is going on in the front of my cosiousness. i am honestly scared (at least we know my med are working because normaly i would have just felt numb. That was not comforting at all.) i can't sit here and type anymore so i'll update this tomorrow.

Yesterday my mom's surgery went well (thank God). My dad called and we talked then he let me talk to her sh was out of it but it was still good to hear from her. i wen't shopping and got snacks but while i was out i tryed to find "Rock n' Rolla" and it wasn't anywhere. Sad. Lent has started, Ash wednesday was good i went to the ash wednesdy service at church, Katy Eston was there and it was nice to get to visit with her. The service just goes to prove that DR Wright is a facinating person. It was a very good sevice. i turned in my single subject design so now i don't have to go to today. i should be working on my big paper but it is so hare to pick back up momentum once it's been lost. Also i need to work on my movement stuff oh boy, i can't wait (lol) this particular piece i'm not really looking forward to. i found my Historical figures, i chose Abraham Lincon and Himmingway. Now i get to do a reserch papaer on them and their strugle with depression. i actualy mite be excited to do the reaserch but not write another paper. i sen't my checks to be deposited so now i just have to wait for the money to show up on my acount. God is good he took care of my mom in sugery and i am thankful for that.

To day is lent, also it's the day of my mom's surgery. She should be in there right now because her apointment time was at 8 Oklahoma time, which is 6 here. So now i'm preparing for work and wating to receve the call from my dad telling how it went. My roomate said he'd wake up with me today, but he's still in bed (dispite turning the lights on). i have had several roomates and i'm thankful that God has given my Paul because he's probably the best roomate i've had (some of them it's not even a contest). a week from today is when were celebrating my one month with Lauren and so i have to plan some stuff to do, it's not actualy our one moth but it's the day befor spring brake, and the actual date is while im home for that. So if you hapen to stumble on this and are in the SD area give me some ideas, i have a few but anything else is always welcome. It's six thirty which means i should probably start headding to work but i'm having trubble getting up right now (i guess i can't make fun of my roommate to much)

pray for my mom if you'd like.

Okay, so it's day two of journaling i already went to my first class (movement) and it was a presentation day and i already presented. Then we talked with Doc about what are plans for our crisis piece and that was good. i'm doing mine on depretion (suprise supeise) and it will take a lot of work to get this to be a good piece, i'm focusing on when i started on medication then it stopped working, it's a section of my story i haven't really dealt with so it should be a good self discovery/ comprention piece

i'm sitting here looking at some cookies that some frinds made me because they called me in the middle of the night to come pick them up from a party because their ride bailed on them. At the time i was agrivated (i hate when people aren't responsible when they drink but at least they didn't try driving home) but the cookies are so good it totaly makes up for it. The problem is i still have two left and i'm not eating today because my mom has surgery tomorrow and so i'm fasting but the cookies are calling my name oh well.

On about my mom's surgery, it is a fairly simple surgery and not any thing major but it still requiers them to cut her open so that always make it some what dangerouse. Being out here i'm going to have to wait to get a call from my dad telling how it went and what they found. other than that i don't have much else going on so i'll just end this here.

i'm starting to journal again, at times in my life i have gone long piriods of time journalling but like normal things change and i quit so hopefuly this will be a good start to a journal i can take anywhere with me. Also i have dyslexia so if stuff is spelt weird just try to pronounce it phonetically. i'm not going to go back and edit all of this so it is what it is.

i just got a call from my friend Andrew Gum to see if we have a reading in voice and diction (vd lol) and i had the same problem last night and i never forund a concreet answer, so i prepared something anyways. That is the only class i have on mondays and wednesdays but i usualy will ether hang out with my gf (her name is Lauren it's a resent acurence) or go work in the theatre after class. i foundout last night that i have a paper due in my reaserch methosd class tomorrow so i'll have to find time to do that. i hate writing papers last minuet. Ok that's about all for today so yeah.