cleaning day

yesterday was cleaning my closet and putting everything in my room in one of three piles trash (there was a lot of) keep and put in storage. all i actually did was pull everything out of my closet thru away the trash and spread everything else across the floor... a artifact record of me, and who i was for the past ten yeas is spread out across my floor. At that thought (and reliving way to-many memories) i was a little overwhelmed so thats where i stopped for the day. The rest of the day i was kind of off because of it until that evening. My sis and i talked about comic books and then i went to bed and couldn't sleep so i texted till 4 something with Lauren that was fun, she's in Anahime with her family (D-land and other fun things). Today i woke up lat and have a whole new day open to me with no clue what's going to happen (i'm trying to be positive) 

life is good even if i don't really feel that way. i just wish i had something to take my mind away.

yesterday i got a pic in the mail with a speeding thing i have to fill out paperwork telling them it's me before i get a ticet?????? umm... finaly got a book for whom the pell tolls,  good so far. and today i hung out with Alix which was fun.

i kind of feel numb today... i took my meds but they don't always completely help. i finally know where i'm going in a story and just need to find the motivation to actually work on it. The lake for mamorialday was fun but it helps me think and be creative...  i missed the Paseo art fair, one of the highlights of the summer :( 

Lauren got her tickets yesterday so she's definitely coming to visit!!! thats some good news.

It's mamorialday we went to the lake all weekend it was fun, even with the rain, i just love being at the lake.

i miss Lauren

last night was ok i went to Tim and Katies my sis is frustrated at them and i got to hear about it on the was there and back but while we were there it was fun mmmm... nerdy games... if the whole world got into nerdy games would they still be nerdy? Today Breakfast was great, my G-ma Johnson and Uncle Mike and Aunt Suzy are in town for a wedding and staying at our house. i need to get my moms birthday present but the place isn't open during the day and mom is around when their open so i have to figure that one out.

another boring day!!!!!!!   last night was ok one of my sis's friends came over then we went to see night at the museum 2, it was better than the first (much much better) i didn't like the first this one was actualy ok.  and yeah i'm just wasting an other day.

ok well i'm home. yep writing a play that i haven't really gotten anywhere on today but what ever. yesterday we had lunch with g-ma Nell which you never quite know what your getting into but yeah. i hate not having anything exciting to talk about in this but not everything is exciting so yeah.

i didn't do anything at all yesterday i should have done some stuff but i didn't have any motivation, hopefully i get some today.  i hung out with Alex and that was fun we just chilled and caught up. It was cool. 

du-du-de-du-de- that's all folks 

well i'm at home now. The past few days have been supper fun. Hanna, Alissa, and Kacy for part of the way all went on a rod trip. We drove to Hanna's aunts house outside pheonix Kacy broke off there and went to Colorado. The rest of us spent the night and the next day drove to Albequrqy to spend the night with Alissa's relitives (they were supper nice and wonderful people) then the next day we drove to my house and had supper i'm glad to be home. The girls drove on to Aidda to spind the night with family friends and then on to Florida. Now i'm home with nothing planed i should do a lot of writing but i have to get the will power to do it. It's so hard to do anything when i'm home,  especialy if i don't have to do it. 

yesterday was my last day here Lauren and i went to D-land supper fun. We went to supper at some m named place that was like a better dinny's, then after driving back we just hung out and shared some intimate time cuddling, talking and what not (i am going to miss that girl so much this summer). Now today i leave to go home but there is my last day of work before that. 

i have to go like right now, i just wanted to say

life is beautiful God is good

but the world is still a vampire 

finals. i got an email saying that a teacher would like to proctor an exam today, instead of Wednesday. Which is good so i have wednesday off. but that meens i have 2 finals today plus some other stuff. All day yesterday was spent with Lauren (check other journal for more detail). 

yesterday i cut my hair... and it was going good until i wasn't paying atention and ended up with a weird short spot... i'm still kind of pissed about it. It will grow back and my hare grows relitivly fast, but it won't be funny for at least a few months. Right after i did it ofcores Lauren calls inviting me to mothersday lunch at her house. i b/sed my way out of it and then told her the real reason later when i had some self esteem back. 

on other news Lauren and i are going to breakfast and then hanging out today. it should be fun. 

yesterday we made a mocumentary on skate boarding. Chriss called Anthony and i the night before around one (we were just leaving Dennys with Lauren, Rachal and Vicky) wanting to know if we were in and we said yes, it was supper fun. 

Yesterday was also Lauren and my 3 month, it's weird to think that we've been together that long (it feels both suprizing that it's only three months and that it's been so short) we hung out at her house most of the day friday it was supper cool and i got points with her parents (i think they like me) 

today is mothers day so it's another family holiday i'm missing, yesterday was my Sis's graduation which is scary because that meens i'm next. Also last saturday was my dad's birthday, so as much as i'm dreading missing Lauren for the next three months, i'm ready to be home and see my family.

i haven't slept as well as i did lastnight in a month and a half. i got the new chariot album good stuff. this is the last day of classes this school year for me. only finals left and those will be done a week from yesterday!!!!!!! A week from today i'll be at D-land. And a week from tomorrow i start the long drive home. i feel relieved and joyous which is not me. The summer is going to be long and probably fairly boring but it should totaly be fun.

Vicky is back in town we all went out to eat and it was cool, Kacy was the fun Kacy not the... which made it real fun. Lauren was supper excited to have Vicky back and was pumped. i found out that i can go to D-land the thursday of finals week, we didn't know if i could because there's a final in the middle of  the day but i'm taking it early. The teacher is kind of not completly on the ball which is what makes her fun and a good teacher but it also kind of throws a wild card into everything.  

to day i find out what the rest of my semester looks like, may God bless me and give me good news. 

In other news Anthony and i made sliding gloves last night. They work better than expected and are supper fun, can't wait to go skate after classes today.

i'm a slacker and have to do a reading today that i just piced out this morning. At least i have all my other  stuf done. today should be ok.

for the past few days that i haven't had to wake up early (ie: the days i don't work) i have woken up freekishly early anyway. As much as that pisses me off today it worked in my favor because i did my paper leaving only one more left and two weeks to do it. Its my dads birthday and i called and talked to him it was nice, also i found out that Lauren might be coming to visit over the summer and that will be supper fun. We saw xmen yesterday that was cool. i don't realy have any other new news. so it's shower time!!!!!!! (i love showers)

i work to early

but it's nice to have a job

just not to wake up